Misconception

I walked into church this morning after missing the first two weeks of the series “Getting past your past” and thinking, “I am so glad I have already dealt with my mistakes and poor choices I have made in the past”. I was really hoping something would speak to Dearest Husband, but made an attempt to humble myself and prayed,” Lord, Open my ears to what you have for me this morning” We sat through almost the whole service and I felt like it was a great message, but I had not learned anything new. After all, I have been through two years of counseling as a part of my degree and have forgiven myself, released my guilt, and learned self confidence. I have lived by my own mantra: the choices and mistakes I made brought me to the place I am now, and I like who I am now!   

We start the scheduled ending prayerthen my ears exploded open,and it hit me like a TON of bricks! I am not who I am because of the mistakes and poor choices I made. If I was, I would still be making poor choices and on the same road. DUH…. human rationality is obsolete at times.

I am who I am because of God’s grace and forgiveness. There were people and events in my life that changed my plan, creatively placed by God and His perfect timing. I like who I am because I am who God says I am, not what I have done! Its so obvious now that I was willing to listen to it.

His love never fails: Worship song of the week,check out the video!
I'll pray for you: not so nice, but way funnier ;)

Resume Reflections

P.S. (“pre-script”) You know what is awkward? Being excited about the Maverick’s win last night, sitting next to a Thunder fan who is not nearly as excited.

So this morning I ran and dropped off my resume at the dentist office hoping to get a part time job so that I can continue to quilt and craft on the side. (I have not yet made my millions from this blog) Not wanting to put all my hope into one job I also ventured into OSU’s employment listings and found two full time opportunities available. After sitting here for 3 hours copy and pasting, rewriting, and changing formats I have successfully applied for both openings!

My biggest challenge: attempting to make a restaurant server job sound like you made a difference in the world. This is what I came up with…………. and then laughed.

·         In a fast paced environment, anticipate customer concerns and assimilate information up to 150 guests per evening

·         Maintained safe and hygienic work environment through yearly Food Handlers Certification  

·         Extensive development of guest relations by communications between guests, staff and management, often employing conflict resolution skills nightly

·         Focused on unique guest experiences to sustain a positive attitude while ensuring multiple management objectives are simultaneously exceeded

·         Financial Transactions in excess of $1,500 per evening

I was sure to leave out the nights I went home and cried, the days that I hated the world be because of this job, and of course the fact that I did not make one bit of difference. I remember one of the early days of this job being told by management “You’re expendable”. The sad part is that it was totally true. I trained new servers in attempt to be more efficient, have complete knowledge of the menu and way the restaurant works. It never made a difference, when I left it just kept going the way it had before. I don’t think it ever occurred to me that some people worked there just to pass time in life, not to make a difference or to better anything. They were just treading water and happy staying afloat. I hope that as I am seeking to start my career I don’t ever reach this point. I always want to be making a difference. When I am gone, I want something to prove I was here.

Dearest Husband and His BIG Day Off!

Finally!!! Dearest Husband got a day off, from his regular job anyway, so we had so much to do around the house! We started off by sleeping in until 10:00 followed by a pancake and sausage breakfast (both of which I thought were reason enough to ask him to do a whole bunch of stuff later). We made our list of what needed to be done:

1.       Clear the ground and plan where to put up the pool

2.       Write the 20 thank you notes I have been putting off for a week now

3.       Take the two trash cans of recycling that we have accumulated to the recycle center and sort them

4.       Put the rain gauge in the garden

5.       Install two floor pieces where the carpet meets the tile

6.       Drop off Special Olympics basketball uniforms to the middle school (which was supposed to be the junior high, like dearest husband said, I found out after we drove to the other side of town. Opps!)

7.       Weed the garden

8.       Cut limb down off tree so that the pool has sun, and the tree looks more symmetrical

9.       Take pictures of 50 quilts so that I can post them to ETSY for the quilt guild

We got everything done but the floor pieces that we bought two months ago! Numbers 7,8, and 9  I added to the list after we got them done just so I could cross them off ;)

I believe Dearest Husband would have rather gone to his regular job.